It’s okay to trust yourself.
You might have been taught to lean not on your own understanding. You might have been taught not to trust your feelings. You might have been taught that even you yourself are untrustworthy.
If this is so, why not try an experiment? Trust yourself!
Are there some secret conclusions you’ve come to on your own that you are really certain of but are afraid to share because they don’t fall in line with convention?
Are there real feelings that you feel that cannot be denied and can no longer be ignored or suppressed?
Are there things about yourself that you want to believe are true and that demand expression?