[Susan in TXParticipant]

Glad you’re here.

[Susan in TXParticipant]

P. S. I just discovered that the notifications for replies to these forum entries were going to my e-mail’s spam box. Sorry for the delay in replying back. Fixed it.

[Susan in TXParticipant]

Hello, Ari,

I’m going to be contrary and say, sure, by even mentioning it you’re engaging in victim blaming.

I may not have made it plain. I had only been there for two Sundays, first of all. Not long enough to insult anyone or make anybody mad. And it was the first time the evangelist’s wife had ever laid eyes on me. So I hadn’t done anything to piss her off. I didn’t even know her.

I believe she could see what I was carrying, and I’m guessing that she had already tried for years to attain it. I think she probably tried to get her husband to bestow upon her what he learned over in India. You don’t just hand this stuff to somebody like magic, you have to properly prepare to receive it. In addition to many other preparations, you must align yourself with the Divine. I don’t know WHAT she was lining up with. The darkness hates the light. Any kind of light.

(Added edit: The trouble went from day one. Then she discovered that I could sing and play the piano, and that it had been my ministry for quite a while. Maybe she thought it wasn’t fair, someone having all that. That’s how she treated me.)

When you say “patterns” I am not at all sure what you mean. I had to wade through years of ridiculously misinformed junk about all of this to finally find correct information. And, sorry to say, what the church teaches about all of this, by and large, is plain wrong. Its scope of vision in this area is far too small and short-sighted.

If you will be a bit more specific, I might be able to supply some helpful info.

See you later! I am getting ready to post the next part of this story — somewhere. Either here on this blog or over on the facebook group.

• This reply was modified 1 week, 5 days ago by  Susan in TX.

[Susan in TXParticipant]

Danielle, I am having to sort that out too. We were also taught we had to deal with the problematic supernatural by the blood of Jesus. Yes, that is a safe way to go. IF you know the rest of the procedure!

But it’s not the only way to go. I don’t understand this perfectly, but some things I’ve learned subsequently have changed my perspective. If everything is made of energy, we can move it, change it, etc. If someone places a wad of energy onto someone where it does not belong, it can cause trouble, pain, illness. There’s no such thing as good/positive or bad/negative energy — if it’s in the wrong place it causes blockages and problems. So someone who knows what to do can move that energy out and restore balance. That is the premise behind a lot of Chinese healing. And that is part of what the Taoist shaman did for me. Believe me, I was surprised too.

[Susan in TXParticipant]

Thanks for reading. Yes, the healing service and the church itself were as charismatic and pentecostal churchy as you can get.

Those un-Christian terms were arrived at much later when I was trying to figure out what the heck happened. There are no Christian terms for a Kundalini awakening. For a long time I thought of it as being “body-slammed by God.” I never told anybody about it anyway. All people knew was that I was different, way way different.

As for the witchcraft, that is exactly what the seer Anna called it, and I didn’t really understand. Because if you have any familiarity with that kind of church, the word witchcraft can mean other things, like being rebellious, or doing spiritual practices that they didn’t happen to approve of, or not being willing to do spiritual practices they insisted upon.

The Taoist shaman is a qi gong and tai chi teacher I met some years after I had quit attending church. I was his student for over a year before he did the ceremony.

Oddly enough, there is no parallel universe to “church.” It is the same stuff with different names, different terms, different deities. Charismatic praise and worship yields the same ecstatic union with the great I AM as Taoist meditation does. They are both hypnosis. How about that.

[Susan in TXParticipant]

Glad you’re here, Rachel.

I’m new too. This is an amazing group, and I bet you’ll enjoy it. Be who you are, and take your time.

[Susan in TXParticipant]

I’m new here too, but welcome. This place is ver-r-r-r-y interesting.

[Susan in TXParticipant]

I was curious about your user name.

[Susan in TXParticipant]

Thanks, cowboyjunkey. Would that be Dallas Cowboys? I’m a Broncos fan myself.

Thanks to you too, Jon. Sounds like you get it! Sorry to hear that you got bashed; how ridiculous. I know you must be very thankful for those friends who help make it more worthwhile. Yes, the music, the music, I sometimes wish the whole thing was music.

Oddly enough, I feel much more at peace, and more tuned in to what I need to hear and understand OUT of church. It seems to have turned out to be a bigger message, but more simple.

Peace to both of you.

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