by David Hayward | Jun 11, 2018 | David's Letters, I'm confused
I went to church yesterday. A Vineyard. While everyone was worshipping to some worship songs I’d never heard before, as I read the words on the overhead and listening to my friend lead them, I found myself asking myself an interesting question: Why do I want to be...
by David Hayward | Jun 3, 2018 | David's Letters, I'm okay
KNOW WHICH QUESTIONS TO ANSWER One of the most important lessons I’ve learned over my years of being spiritually rebellious is knowing which questions to answer. I’ve concluded that most questions I’m asked are not borne out of a genuine curiosity or a desire to know,...
by David Hayward | May 27, 2018 | David's Letters, I'm sad
“… to gather up all things in him…” (Ephesians 1:10) This verse has always meant a lot to me. I’ve always understood this to mean that absolutely everything is gathered up in what is true. Nothing left behind! Like wheat in the harvest, everything is gathered...
by David Hayward | May 13, 2018 | David's Letters, I'm okay
I’ve decided “recovery” is a poor word to use to describe my life beyond the confines of the church and its religion and theology. Now, that being said, there were some things I needed to recover from, such as the atmosphere of control, manipulation, mind-control, and...
by David Hayward | May 6, 2018 | David's Letters, I'm okay
THE THREE Fs When Lisa and I left the ministry and, as it ends up, the church in 2010, we came to the conclusion that we had some work to do on our personal lives. The reason? We felt we’d been living under a heavy wet blanket for a long time, just being Christians...
by David Hayward | Apr 29, 2018 | David's Letters, I'm sad
It’s with sadness I announce the passing of another TLS member, Sarah Courtney-Dean. Just a couple of months ago we lost Chris McGill. That was a serious blow to our community. So is the loss of Sarah. Let me quote Ruth Calder-Murphy, one of our founding members who...
by David Hayward | Apr 23, 2018 | David's Letters, I'm scared
I just returned from Toronto to be with my sister, Cathy, who had just had breast cancer surgery. I was there to spend the week with her following the surgery. I’m so glad I did. One night she was experiencing severe pain in her right breast. The pain escalated to the...
by David Hayward | Apr 18, 2018 | David's Letters, I'm okay
I don’t have much to say today, but I do feel it is very important. Over the several decades of my interest in religion, I continually return to an even deeper conviction concerning my observations. And my conviction is this: I believe religion does provide some good...
by David Hayward | Apr 8, 2018 | David's Letters, I'm confused
The Main Lesson I Learn From Fasting Every once in a while I’ll do a fast. I just did another one recently. From food. I’ve done other kinds of fasts. I will fast from alcohol, sex, TV, screens, speech, etc. Here’s the main lesson I always learn from fasting: I...
by David Hayward | Apr 1, 2018 | David's Letters, I'm confused
“Do You Pray?” My Attempt to Answer. I’m often asked how I pray. This is intimately related to my view of “God”, so I treat this question with great caution and respect. Lisa and I talk about this quite a bit as well. I distinctly remember when we first...
by David Hayward | Mar 25, 2018 | David's Letters, I'm angry
Don’t you just love it when you’re condescended to? Don’t you just love it when someone thinks they’re better than you? No? Me neither. I was going through some old emails yesterday and came across an some correspondence between me and another guy from years ago. I...
by David Hayward | Mar 19, 2018 | David's Letters, I'm okay
The Lasting Supper is a different kind of community. I’m not saying we’re special. Okay… maybe I am. But not in a boastful way. Just in a matter-of-fact way. I’ve been a member of many online communities, and from my observation they just don’t do well. There is...
by David Hayward | Mar 11, 2018 | David's Letters, I'm scared
One of the worst feelings for me to feel is “trapped”. There have been several times in my life where I’ve felt trapped. In a job. In a relationship. In a belief system. I find it interesting now that each and every time I felt trapped… sometimes for years… it took a...
by David Hayward | Mar 4, 2018 | David's Letters, I'm angry, I'm sad, I'm scared
It was like a light came on. I suddenly realized I was in a toxic relationship. For years! Here’s how the light came on: I noticed my feelings. I was angry. I had just been disrespected and condescended to. I HAD JUST BEEN VIOLATED! The choice was immediate: continue...
by David Hayward | Feb 24, 2018 | David's Letters, I'm confused, I'm sad
I had a strange conversation the other day that is like so many other conversations I’ve had since I left the ministry and the church in 2010. However, thinking back on it, being fiercely independent with an unquenchable curiosity for the truth, I’ve experienced these...
by David Hayward | Feb 19, 2018 | David's Letters, I'm okay
Lisa and I, in our BC days (before children), moved to Prince Edward Island (home of Anne of Green Gables) right after my Masters in New Testament Studies. I had accepted a job as Assistant to the Minister at Zion Presbyterian Church in Charlottetown. This was in...