I am tired. I am so very tired. Physically. Emotionally. Mentally. Socially. I’ve been this broken, over and over again. But this time, I can’t seem to find the inner will and strength to get up and keep going again. I’m feeling numb and blank, even with the ache in my heart. And the tears won’t flow anymore. I’m shrinking away. People are…[Read more]

I’ve been, for lack of a better description, terribly depressed for months. Events in June (a long story, basically I’ve been disowned by family, partly for being atheistic toward their god) brought my levels of sadness to even deeper, more painful ones. I cannot figure out what to do other than to just “march on” even when the pain in my chest…[Read more]

I admit it. I’ve been mostly prowling around reading here and there, and only leaving a snarky little jokey comment ever once in awhile. The past few months have been…weird? I dunno. Anyway, I really miss hanging out here more, and I miss the people that I used to talk to more, but now it’s been a couple months minimum. I’m just…weird. I can’t…[Read more]

The following link is to an article, which I am pretty sure is satire. http://www.larknews.com/archives/217

Question: Why is so much of christianity about denying ones self of the natural urges? It seems like the rate of unfaithfulness may be related to the level of “holiness” a couple is striving to achieve. I know that when my husband and I …[Read more]

Today has been a rather self reflective day. Actually, the last week or so has been, but today is kind of punctuation-like in that self reflection. After being a part of the panel and sharing on Friday nights’ potluck hangout, and listening to @RevOxley share in the one they had this morning..I just can’t seem to stop thinking about how I was…[Read more]

Oh, yes..I am!

So, now it has become necessary for me to delete that girl from my phone. The one who I deleted from Facebook along with all of my husband’s family members and other super religious people who just wouldn’t lay off with the judgement and harassment if ever I posted something that they felt was even a little “unbiblical”. So this…[Read more]

Guys…I’m in a really weird place right now. I’m fully okay with not knowing what’s really happening as far as why I am here, where I am going, who is in charge and so on. I’m actually finding that I’m enjoying the simple things in my life SO much more than I ever could have before. I’m pretty much convinced that nobody has it exactly right, so I…[Read more]

Hahahahahaha!! I laughed so hard at this..haha! I think there are more than three types of churches, but I get his point of view and even though I don’t have  desire for/ a definition of worship, I liked what he said about it. Hopefully, this will give someone else a giggle..and he has more videos, …[Read more]

I’ve heard bad things about this guy..from evangelical christians.. and I never watched any of his videos until today.  This entire video all the way until right before he says “Good thing I’m not wrong” is like he took the thoughts out of my head. I’m thinking maybe he’s a wee bit smug..but he has a lot of really good …[Read more]

WARNING!     This is a slideshow of pictures from birth to 4 months of my youngest daughter, Bella Rose. Since she was so premature, she is very, very small and underdeveloped looking. That fact, combined with all the medical equipment in/on her body, is something that I recognize might be difficult for some people to see. I DO want people to wa…[Read more]

I just posted this in a comment on Amy’s Ice sculpture post..but I decided that I wanted to share it with everyone. The people that make these Bad Lip Reading videos have provided me with lots of huge belly laughs…i need all the happy endorphins I can get. I hope that at least some of you here have similarly goofy humor as I do, and will enjoy…[Read more]

I’m really torn up about this. And I was feeling so much better before, thanks to a lovely talk with @starfielder …

On Saturday, I got a message from a gal that I mentioned just the other day in my “Tired of being a closet atheist” post. She posted something that seemed really passive aggressive, mentioning that she feels like she’s being…[Read more]

I had a conversation with a new friend who calls herself a Christian, but who is undeniably the opposite of most Christians I used to spend time with, because I told her where I stand and she still talks to me! I was telling her that I’m terrified of my parents in law, and how it’s really taking a toll on me because I feel like I’m living a double…[Read more]

Achyra S. is providing me with a lot of food for thought these days..this video really puts into words for me what I would say about the “tenets” of my religion if I claimed to have one.

I had a talk with my mom awhile back, close to the same time I became a part of the forum. Spirituality and religion came up, and I ended up attempting to share a few things that had been on my mind, and of course the fact that I don’t believe in God came up…She didn’t really listen (I don’t think she can) to much that I said and she interrupted…[Read more]

I thought that I had escaped the cycle of abuse…I thought leaving my religion behind, as excruciating as that process has been, was going to be it for me. I thought I was done letting anyone use me. My heart is broken yet again today, and I am really wondering how I can escape without slipping into more bitterness. I was starting to feel so much…[Read more]

Macklemore is a rap artist, so the music may not be your cup of tea, so I’ll also post the lyrics under the link, too..This song is very “soft” as far as rap goes, so if you’re not afraid to go out of your comfort zone, I highly recommend watching the video! The lyrics bring me to tears every time. This guy is using his talent well in my opinion,…[Read more]

I have a long history of sleep disturbance. Since I was a little girl, I can remember being awake at all hours of the night in between fitful “sections” of sleep. I used to suffer from night terrors, and my dad used to have to take me outdoors and expose me to to cooler/cold air to snap me out of the screaming hysteria I was locked in. I…[Read more]